Work is slow. The weather is crazy. I'm slowly going insane.
I haven't had my Prozac for several days. I am going to SNAP soon. It sort of freaks me out how your body reacts to not having something it's used to having daily. I almost thought about not taking it anymore, but to be honest, it helps me deal with daily things in life. I couldn't work at my job if I didn't take medication. Seriously! Not to mention, I'm not the happiest person, as all of you know. Good thing you love me anyways. =)
I'm waiting on the weather forecast. We could possibly get a lot of snow, with blizzard type conditions, at the beginning of next week. I think it will go the other way. Let's hope so because I'm getting cabin fever! I do nothing, but work and go home. This crap is getting old.
Maybe a giant ice sickle will hit me in the head...
if I'm lucky.
Friday, January 30, 2009
Thursday, January 29, 2009
Got Ice?
Over the past few days, we've had terrible weather. We got several inches of ice and snow. A state of emergency was called, there are thousands of people without power. I lost power Wednesday morning, but the power came back on yesterday. Thank God, I was starting to get cold! None of the office staff made it to work (I couldn't get out of my parking lot) and the ones that made it in, were sent home. However, I am back at work today.
I can't believe all of the trees and power lines that are down. It's amazing what ice can do. I could hear trees breaking and falling. The ice looked beautiful on the trees. It WAS something to see.
Earthquake, tornadoes, hurricane wind storm, ice and snow...
What's next?
I can't believe all of the trees and power lines that are down. It's amazing what ice can do. I could hear trees breaking and falling. The ice looked beautiful on the trees. It WAS something to see.
Earthquake, tornadoes, hurricane wind storm, ice and snow...
What's next?
Wednesday, January 21, 2009
Bye Bye Bush
Drunk Ass: See this is what pisses me off, they are showing nothing, but blacks.
Me: Well, it's a moment in history for black people. They are showing white people too. Look, there is a white woman and she's crying!
Drunk Ass: Yeah, all because a f'n NIGGAR made President.
Me: STFU! Just because your dumbass is racist doesn't mean I am. I'm sick of listening to your shit and I'm sick of you using that word! Go to f'n bed!
He continued to yell niggar through my apartment. I was about to call the police (seriously). Our neighbor is a black man, a very nice black man. I know the guy could hear his dumbass through the wall. If I see my neighbor outside, I feel I should apologize, even though I wasn't the one saying it.
A black man becoming President. It shows just how much the world has changed. I think it's truly amazing.
Maybe Obama is just what this country needs.
Me: Well, it's a moment in history for black people. They are showing white people too. Look, there is a white woman and she's crying!
Drunk Ass: Yeah, all because a f'n NIGGAR made President.
Me: STFU! Just because your dumbass is racist doesn't mean I am. I'm sick of listening to your shit and I'm sick of you using that word! Go to f'n bed!
He continued to yell niggar through my apartment. I was about to call the police (seriously). Our neighbor is a black man, a very nice black man. I know the guy could hear his dumbass through the wall. If I see my neighbor outside, I feel I should apologize, even though I wasn't the one saying it.
A black man becoming President. It shows just how much the world has changed. I think it's truly amazing.
Maybe Obama is just what this country needs.
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Stalking Mig...Again
The Cannon Fodder MeMe
1. Is there someone you'd like to be kissing right now? No, I'm not in the kissing mood today. Thanks.
2. When you're being extremely quiet, what does it mean? It usually means I'm sad. I'm hiding within myself.
3. What are you listening to right now? Some stupid country song that I don't care for at all.
4. Are you a big fan of thunderstorms? Not since I've seen the damage of what a tornado can do. And not since I live in an upstairs apartment!
5. Do you believe in perfect? No way. Thank God, perfect would be boring.
6. Are you a jealous person? I try not to be, but I totally am.
7. What was the first thing you thought this morning? What time is it?
8. What do you think about when you are falling asleep? The things I want/need to change. People in my life. Let's just say I pray a lot.
9. Are you satisfied with what you have in life? No, but I am grateful.
10. Do people ever think that you're either older or younger than you actually are? All I know is they don't card me for beer anymore! I'm not happy about that!
11. Do you think men truly understand women? Nope. Not from what I've seen.
12. How about women understanding men? Repeat answer at #11.
13. Did anybody ever call you handsome or beautiful? Yes, beautiful. It's very flattering.
14. What is one fact about the last person that called you? He's an immature ass.
15. Other than your current one, what’s the longest relationship you have had? 11 years with my ex. Almost a complete waste of 11 years. :/
1. Is there someone you'd like to be kissing right now? No, I'm not in the kissing mood today. Thanks.
2. When you're being extremely quiet, what does it mean? It usually means I'm sad. I'm hiding within myself.
3. What are you listening to right now? Some stupid country song that I don't care for at all.
4. Are you a big fan of thunderstorms? Not since I've seen the damage of what a tornado can do. And not since I live in an upstairs apartment!
5. Do you believe in perfect? No way. Thank God, perfect would be boring.
6. Are you a jealous person? I try not to be, but I totally am.
7. What was the first thing you thought this morning? What time is it?
8. What do you think about when you are falling asleep? The things I want/need to change. People in my life. Let's just say I pray a lot.
9. Are you satisfied with what you have in life? No, but I am grateful.
10. Do people ever think that you're either older or younger than you actually are? All I know is they don't card me for beer anymore! I'm not happy about that!
11. Do you think men truly understand women? Nope. Not from what I've seen.
12. How about women understanding men? Repeat answer at #11.
13. Did anybody ever call you handsome or beautiful? Yes, beautiful. It's very flattering.
14. What is one fact about the last person that called you? He's an immature ass.
15. Other than your current one, what’s the longest relationship you have had? 11 years with my ex. Almost a complete waste of 11 years. :/
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
"Where I Stood"
I don't know what I've done
Or if I like what I've begun
But something told me to run
And honey you know me it's all or none
There were sounds in my head
LIttle voices whispering
That I should go and this should end
Oh and I found myself listening
'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
See I thought love was black and white
That it was wrong or it was right
But you ain't leaving without a fight
And I think I am just as torn inside
'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
And I won't be far from where you are if ever you should call
You meant more to me than anyone I ever loved at all
But you taught me how to trust myself and so I say to you
This is what I have to do
'Cos I dont know who I am, who I am without you
All I know is that I should
And I don't know if I could stand another hand upon you
All I know is that I should
'Cos she will love you more than I could
She who dares to stand where I stood
Oh, she who dares to stand where I stood
Stalking Mig
1. What is the bravest thing that you feel you've ever done physically?
I physically went to another country all by MYSELF. Does that count? It should!
2. What is the bravest thing that you feel you've ever done emotionally?
When I filed for divorce. I didn't think I would ever be able to do that.
3. What one talent do you wish you had that you don't?
I wish I could sing.
4. If you had that talent what would you be doing with it?
Entertaining the drunks at the local bar?
5. We all have our reasons for blogging but what would be your ultimate goal for your blog or as a blogger?
Blogging is just an outlet for me. It's also for me to get advice. I need advice!
6. What advice would you give a new blogger?
Write from the heart.
7. Who are you three favorite blogs to visit (Yes, you can have ties and name more than three.)
Mig, Coyote, Jess. I visit all of them daily. More than once a day. Seems like most blogs are quiet these days. What's up with that? Blog dammit!
8. You can trade lives with any one person for a month. Who would it be and why?
Someone pregnant who gives birth in that month. That way I could decide if I really want children or not. haha
9. There's a fire and your family is safe but you have the chance to save any one item from your house. What would it be and why?
My pictures from Amsterdam. I will probably never get to go back.
10. You have the chance to go back in time and warn yourself before making a bad choice. What choice would it be and what would you tell yourself?
I wouldn't of got married. You all know why.
I physically went to another country all by MYSELF. Does that count? It should!
2. What is the bravest thing that you feel you've ever done emotionally?
When I filed for divorce. I didn't think I would ever be able to do that.
3. What one talent do you wish you had that you don't?
I wish I could sing.
4. If you had that talent what would you be doing with it?
Entertaining the drunks at the local bar?
5. We all have our reasons for blogging but what would be your ultimate goal for your blog or as a blogger?
Blogging is just an outlet for me. It's also for me to get advice. I need advice!
6. What advice would you give a new blogger?
Write from the heart.
7. Who are you three favorite blogs to visit (Yes, you can have ties and name more than three.)
Mig, Coyote, Jess. I visit all of them daily. More than once a day. Seems like most blogs are quiet these days. What's up with that? Blog dammit!
8. You can trade lives with any one person for a month. Who would it be and why?
Someone pregnant who gives birth in that month. That way I could decide if I really want children or not. haha
9. There's a fire and your family is safe but you have the chance to save any one item from your house. What would it be and why?
My pictures from Amsterdam. I will probably never get to go back.
10. You have the chance to go back in time and warn yourself before making a bad choice. What choice would it be and what would you tell yourself?
I wouldn't of got married. You all know why.
Monday, January 12, 2009
Scary, but true...
This is a picture of my mother in her "angry" personality. No shit! I did not get this off of the internet. However, I am thinking of calling Hollywood. She could star in the next zombie film!
Anyways....
I spent Friday evening at my grandma/mom's house. I did laundry and we talked about old times. Old times led into my childhood. I listened to excuses being made as to why NOTHING was done to protect me.
Anxiety level: 10
After washing my clothes, I said thanks and left. I analyzed our conversations on the way home. I was angry, but I refused to cry. I wanted to cry. I'm tired of being the victim. I quickly made myself get over it.
All I can say...
pills are great.
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