Monday, February 2, 2009

I'm ashamed of what my life has become...

When he's sober, he barely speaks to me, unless he's bitching about something ridiculous. We sit in two different rooms. When things don't go his way, I'm a bitch, slut, cunt, etc. I get nothing from him. There is no affection. We don't sleep in the same bed, we don't have sex. He's just...there.

When he's drunk, he's affectionate. He wants sex (even though he can't keep it up due to alcohol). He loves me, blah blah blah. He easily gets angry. Last weekend he got upset when I went out to eat with my female coworker. He called my cell phone several times. He accused me of being with other men. I finally turned my phone off. When I turned it back on, I had 14 messages. He basically called me a piece of shit and threatened me. The next day, he got angry when I didn't want to go anywhere with him (he was drunk). He shoved me against the counter. He barricaded the front door so nobody could get in or out. I was going to call the police, but he watched every move I made. I was afraid he'd flip his lid before the police arrived. He's Jekyll and Hyde.

He found my journal. He read it. My own personal thoughts and feelings. He uses it against me.

He threatens me. He says if I don't stay with him, he will make me get kicked out of my apartment, he will get me fired from my job, he will fuck up my car, he will kill my dog, etc.

I don't believe everything he says. I think he is just running his mouth. I don't coward away from him, but I don't fuel the fire either.

I don't want him in my life anymore. I don't want to get anyone involved, I just want him to go peacefully.

I want my life back!

9 comments:

Rain said...

Is it your ex husband? Please get this guy out of your life! Threats should be taken seriously. Is there a safe place you and your dog can go? Come here if you want, I have room. Stop letting Aholes into your personal space and your life! I love you and I'm here if you need me.
Get an order of protection ASAP!

Mig said...

It's so easy for me to say but take him to the liquor store, give him money to go in, LEAVE HIM THERE, go home barricade the door, call the locksmith and throw his stuff out the window.

Now is the time, get him out before something bad happens to you.

Please?

Ivan The Great said...

PUT HIS USELESS ASS OUT!! Don't think it will get better because it won't. Take your girls offer and go stay with her while you clean this up! I told you I would fly home and take care of this, But you don't want me to. Hun you are a BEAUTIFUL person both on the inside and out! I have told you this before, but you never listen to me. I agree with Rain and Mig. Lose the LOSER!

Much Love...Beautiful! I am here if you need me.

beckyboop said...

I don't even know what to say. No one yields that much power over another unless you give it to them.

Just stop it. You have that power and you alone. Stop wasting precious time and get rid of the prick. How many Mr Rights have you missed occupying your time with pukes?

Come on my niece, take control! You can do it. Pick up some self help books. The one that helped me the most was "Women who love too much". It was the start of my recovery of codependency.

You can buy a used copy on line...Give me your address and I will send you one. I say all of this out of love.

"WOMEN WHO LOVE TOO MUCH - When You Keep Wishing and Hoping He'll Change, by Robin Norwood"

Rain said...

Sassy, it's your apartment right? Just call the police and say he is threatening you and you want him out. They will make him leave in about 5 seconds, ask them how to go about getting a restraining order. They would love to help you, that is their job.

pearl said...

Honey, I know its hard, and I know you don't want to be alone, but seriously, he needs to go. He might hurt you or Harley badly and he so is not worth it. I know you want him to go quietly, but he won't. He won't go quietly, so you have to make him go. Just call the police and get his ass outta there! Change the locks and get a restraining order. You are so much better than him. You deserve so much more! If you need a place to stay, you can come and stay with me. I'm not joking. I'm not that far away from you and I am here if you need me!

Coyote Bebop said...

Do this;
Go to the Police Department. Tell them EVERYTHING. Tell them that you fear for your safety, and the safety of your pet, if you try to evict him. Tell them that you just want him to leave, and never come back.
They will escort you home, and stand there as he leaves.
If they, for some reason CAN'T do that, they will essentially tell him, that if you, or your pet is harmed = PRISON.

I guarantee you that he will back down.

He is a fucking PUSS, and PUSSIES always back down from the cops.

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alan said...

So much good advice from so many here that truly love you and care for you!

But you are the one who has to do it...

alan

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