I had a great Christmas, even though I didn't do much and I worked.

I decided to give the nice guy another chance. I explained to him what I didn't want. I also told him I need time. If he comes on too strong, that pushes me away. If he just relaxes, and goes with the flow, that will bring me closer.

He respects that.

We'll see...

Yep, met a nice guy and now it's over!

I'm already feeling smothered and he's already trying to move in! I told him I needed my space and that I have plans for the next few days. THEN he asked me what my problem was. He even asked me if I was bipolar.

That pretty much did it for me.

Maybe Santa will bring me peace for Christmas. If not, I'm going to punch him in his sack...

To make a long story short...

I think I may have met a really GOOD guy. I'm going out with him again on Saturday. AND he comes from a wealthy family. Not that I really care, but heh.

I'm sick with a cold. It sucks!

In case I don't blog again until after the holidays...

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU AND YOURS!

XOXO

Gobble This!

I can't believe it's the Holiday season. It's been a quick year. I'm working on Thanksgiving this year. Nobody is doing anything, I might as well work my second job and get Holiday pay. Somebody has to do it, right?

My life has become pretty much nothing, but work and tv. I'm too tired to do anything else. I'm such a homebody. I did go eat and get my nails done with my friend last night. THE friend, I don't really have many friends. It's a choice. I've been burned too many times. Especially when you had someone in your life, who you thought, and was told "you will always be a part of my life", to never hear from them again. To this day, I have no clue what I did wrong. I lost my faith in friendship, in good men, in being able to smoke in restaraunts (damn them) and let's face it...humanity. Okay, so I went a little far with the humanity thing, but you get what I'm saying!

It doesn't matter, most of my friends live inside of my computer. I love you guys. I wish you nothing, but the best, and a very Happy Thanksgiving!

Much turkey and much love!

:XO

Smoking Haters SUCK

No more smoking allowed on the premises at work due to non-smokers complaining. Non-smokers who work 40 minutes away in another location. Because of their complaints, it is effecting us all!

This means I will have to drive off of the premises. We are off of a highway!

Ok, smoking is bad for you, blah blah blah. We all know this. Excuse me for having the habit. I did not create tobacco, I fell to peer pressure, dammit! Seriously! I got addicted to it and now I'm paying for it in more ways than one. My health, financially, and now at work.

These people want me to go postal, don't they?

I guess it would be a good time to seriously QUIT. It's just the point.

THE POINT THAT EVERYONE SHOULD MIND THEIR OWN FREAKIN' BUSINESS!

It's been a while...

My grandfather passed away on 10/11. He was sick for years, so he's in a much better place now. My mom didn't handle it very well, but that's expected. He was a very good man. He will be missed.

I got my very own nice office at work. AND thanks to another bonus the company gave me, I was able to buy a new (to me) car! It's super nice. It's also black, which I love.

I'm thinking about moving at the end of the month. I need an apartment (or house) that doesn't have dangerous steps to walk up and down. I've been having a lot of back problems (bulging disc) since falling down my apartment steps last year. It's painful and annoying. My lease is up in December. Time to move!

Other than the back problems, still working two jobs, and missing you guys...

LIFE IS IMPROVING!

:XO

I've been hiding in my apartment for a while. Trying to get my thoughts and feelings back together. That's a hard thing to do sometimes. Then you have people who don't understand why you need to be alone. It's so frustrating. I shouldn't have to explain myself. I shouldn't have my own thoughts and feelings used against me. A "friend" shouldn't do that to you.

Maybe I opened up too soon. I felt comfortable..or so I thought. I'm not so comfortable anymore, so I think I will just keep my mouth shut.

Today is the best day I've had in a while. I'm beginning to feel at peace again, at least for today. I wish I could say that every day, but the truth is, I am a person who has to take it one day at a time.

Peace