Friday, November 12, 2010

Cheers

On Monday I will be 33 years old. I have an issue with getting older. I feel like everyone is passing me by. I have nobody to share my life with, no children of my own to love, and no place to call home. However, I do have my health and a job. For that I am thankful.

My friend bought me a ring. The ring says "Nothing is impossible". She wants me to remember that. I need to remember that. I've lost faith in all possibilities for myself.

I'm trying. Trying to climb out of this dark hole I'm in. I wish someone would throw me some rope. So I can either climb out or hang myself.

I think I need a drink..

14 comments:

rivercat said...

i like to have a drink now and then. Happy birthday in advance.
life is a struggle but if you can find something to do that makes you feel better, you can limit the length and intensity of the periods of low spirits or mild depression. Barring serious brain chemistry issues, the mind will heal just like an injury with the
passage of time. I think the bottom line is that you are smart, and you can support yourself. Youre ahead of an awful lot of people just those attritbutes. You can build on that easily. In short, you have a great base to build happiness on. Happiness is finding something you like to do an doing it. Relationships imo are about supporting each other's dreams, finding new dreams, and having fun and talking about things, and learning, but only as important as being happy with yourself, not being the reason why youre happy inside. I have heard a lot of interesting tales about life after marriage and feeling even more alone after a few years together. I think youll be fine.

fineartist said...

I like this friend of yours. I'll throw you a rope if only you'll promise not to hang yourself, because I could never help you hurt you. I love your spirit too much.

You are young, trust me on this one. It's nothing but up from here.

I had a beer and a half last night...and was slurring my words, gaa I am so embarrassing.

I love you, I miss you, I want you to be totally spoiled with love and affection and I want that for me too. heh. Smooch, love, mom

Ms Burden said...

What you wrote about yourself pretty much summarizes my life, except the fact that I am one year older than you. I need double drink, then LOL

Ms Burden said...

Happy Birthday, btw

alan said...

A belated Happy Birthday from what I wish wasn't so far away...

alan

Finding Myself said...

Happy belated birthday! you will crawl eventually. Be good to yourself.

kimmylaz said...

Another really great for seks post

Rose said...

I'm currently 54 years old, I have no problem with that...
except.....I really don't like the way the days, weeks, months, and years have been flying by so rapidly. I plan to live forever, but I try to enjoy every moment of everyday in case I don't. My health is in remission for the time being so I'm doing as much as I can. I'm way over extended, but that's me. I currently have 2 grand daughters and 1 grandson. 2 of them are grandchildren in my heart. I miss you. I love you. I wish you a joyfilled holiday season.

Rose said...

If you're still in touch with Bulb, Lissa, and/or Rum or anyone other than Coyote, please tell them I asked that they sometimes stop by my blog and leave me an update on how they're doing.

Jess said...

I still love you Hooker

aj said...

Thanks, you make me feel better with this.. honestly.. I have the same feeling right now.. but I'm ten years younger than you..

just me said...

THE WORDS, THROW ME A ROPE, SO THAT I CAN EITHER CLIMB OUT OF THIS DARK HOLE, OR HANG MYSELF.
THOSE WORDS JUST MAKE MY HEART BEAT, I FEEL YOUR PAIN, NO YOU FEEL MY PAIN. HUH, I'M NOT ALONE. I COULD JUST CRY.
THANK YOU

Amber said...

I just came across your blog. I skimmed through it some. You kind of remind me of myself.

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