I'm feeling better these days. I got a new job. The job is less stressful. And I'm only making twenty six cents less on the hour than my old job. I also have more benefits.
Pretty soon I am going to be getting my own place again. This time I am not depending on anyone, but ME. And I will not be letting anyone move in with me either.
My heart still breaks sometimes over the baby. I guess it just wasn't meant to be. I keep hoping that God was showing me that one day I will be a mother. He just didn't think it was the right time or with the right person. I still talk to that person, but I haven't seen him in weeks. It's best this way. I deserve much more than he is willing to give. It's his loss. Like they say, I may not be a first choice, but I'm a great choice.
I'm working on getting myself together again. I've been going to church occasionally. I've been doing a lot of praying as well. I seriously have God to thank for my strength...
I don't think I could do it without him.
Miss you all!