Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Climbing Out

I'm feeling better these days. I got a new job. The job is less stressful. And I'm only making twenty six cents less on the hour than my old job. I also have more benefits.

Pretty soon I am going to be getting my own place again. This time I am not depending on anyone, but ME. And I will not be letting anyone move in with me either.

My heart still breaks sometimes over the baby. I guess it just wasn't meant to be. I keep hoping that God was showing me that one day I will be a mother. He just didn't think it was the right time or with the right person. I still talk to that person, but I haven't seen him in weeks. It's best this way. I deserve much more than he is willing to give. It's his loss. Like they say, I may not be a first choice, but I'm a great choice.

I'm working on getting myself together again. I've been going to church occasionally. I've been doing a lot of praying as well. I seriously have God to thank for my strength...

I don't think I could do it without him.

Miss you all!

29 comments:

rivercat said...

Hi sassy, glad to hear about you feeling better and the new job...congrats

Sir James Eric Watkins said...

You are indeed a great choice.

I'm sorry dear that the world has been so mean to you. Because like I...or rather you said: you are a great choice.

Just know that 'ol James is still out there . . . caring.

Mig said...

I am so happy for you!!
Keep up the good work.
~hugs~

John Staggs said...

I like your blog. It reminds me of the many,many hours I've spent trying to be what everyone wanted (but me).I finally figured out that who I needed to be,was just me. Good luck with your journey,I hope you find "YOU".

Rosie said...

We're like cats; we always land on our feet. It will only get better from here.

Love you,
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Anonymous said...

wow sassy i just came across your blog. You blog is exactly how my life is. I am glad to read that your feeling better and that you have a new job. Hopefully soon I can find myself.

finding my way said...

Hello, I've read a few of your posts,and I have to say I know how you feel. I am in such a dark place right now and the only way I have been making it through is my meds. Hope things work out for you.

Michael Hofmockel said...
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Michael Hofmockel said...

I've been to a place of darkness myself. I think I am ahead of you on the journey to happiness. Maybe a few posts of mine can help - Rolling Down Hill and Accepting Happiness

Anonymous said...

I just came across your blog, sorry for the losses in your life, two sayings help me, one is from the Bible James 1:13 ...'with evil things God does not try us" so that reminds me that anything bad in my life never comes from God. the other is a quote I read somewhere "don't let people become a priority in your life when you are just an option in theirs! hang in there

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Sir James Eric Watkins said...

just looking in on ya. It's been so long it feels.

Anonymous said...

Hi there,

I'm going through a rocky patch myself and would just like to share:

I believe that everything happens for a reason. People change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.”
― Marilyn Monroe

Also this:
"You never know how strong you are until being strong is the only choice you have - Anonymous"

It is through the toughest times that we grow, have faith, keep praying and always remember, good or bad times, "this too will pass". Take care dear :)

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