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I want to start out by thanking my friend, Mig. She sent me a wonderful Christmas package with a lot of makeup, an adorable dachshund figurine, and a cute Christmas tree! I don't know Mig that well. I know her through the wonderful world of blogging. It's nice to know, there are people out there who is as thoughtful as she is. Now THAT is what Christmas is about! Thank You, Mig. I hope you have a very Merry Christmas!

In other news, I've been feeling depressed. It's physical. I'm not sure why I'm depressed. There are a few things that are bothering me, but nothing major. The GUY is still living in my home. I do not believe he actually "wants" me for a relationship. I believe he wants someone to control. We do not sleep in the same bed(he won't sleep in bed with Harley), we don't have sex, he doesn't show much affection at all, unless he's drunk. When he's drunk, it's totally different. Oh how he loves me, blah blah.

He still accuses me of other men. He's jealous and possessive, which doesn't make sense to me. Like I said, there is no affection/sex there. Isn't that what people do in a relationship? Why is he so jealous, etc. when we aren't even sleeping together?

I am providing him a place to live. He's currently laid off from work and is soon to be drawing unemployment, but as of right now, he doesn't have any money. He says he has no place to go either. I can't get myself to kick him out during the Holidays, but seriously, this shit is getting old. He cleans, cooks, and bitches...daily. He has OCD (I'm not making this up, dammit!).

With lack of affection, sex, and all that crap, I can only feel that he is using me. Either that, or there is something wrong with me. No, I am attractive and caring. Pfft.

What the hell is the problem?

Maybe I'm the problem...