Yada Yada Yada

I'm blinking too much. Which means my anxiety is high. Rubbing my eyes isn't helping, neither is the anxiety medication.

Maybe it's the extra work at work, or the second job, or the ex-asshole still calling, questioning and saying "tell me you haven't been with nobody else, do you SWEAR to God?". WTF. He can't seem to understand that it has nothing to do with anyone else. AND it's none of his busiwax.


Why is it, when you think you know what you want, and you get it, you don't really think you want it?

I meet a really sweet guy, who would probably do anything in the world for me. An attractive guy. And yet, I'm confused. I don't really know if I want to be with him. I'm pointing out all of his flaws and picking at little things to MYSELF. Like I am purposely trying NOT to like him. And then I'm asking myself WHY.

What is my problem?

I had a great Christmas, even though I didn't do much and I worked.

I decided to give the nice guy another chance. I explained to him what I didn't want. I also told him I need time. If he comes on too strong, that pushes me away. If he just relaxes, and goes with the flow, that will bring me closer.

He respects that.

We'll see...

Yep, met a nice guy and now it's over!

I'm already feeling smothered and he's already trying to move in! I told him I needed my space and that I have plans for the next few days. THEN he asked me what my problem was. He even asked me if I was bipolar.

That pretty much did it for me.

Maybe Santa will bring me peace for Christmas. If not, I'm going to punch him in his sack...

To make a long story short...

I think I may have met a really GOOD guy. I'm going out with him again on Saturday. AND he comes from a wealthy family. Not that I really care, but heh.

I'm sick with a cold. It sucks!

In case I don't blog again until after the holidays...

MERRY CHRISTMAS TO YOU AND YOURS!

XOXO